Tuesday, July 12, 2005
Note:The following is written in a random order, read in order if you wish.
Well, if you read Nicola's blogger, she wasn't too happy with her results.In my opinion(only mine) I think she's over observent. ***VERY*** overobservent. But, knowing she now had something to say, now I do as well. I replied in a lengthy comment(read Nicola's blogger first!):
"Ok, about the jumping thing, I know you might think this is weird, but I was trying to make Kyra happy for once. She asked me to bounce on the air bed, maybe make it flat, and I was trying to be considerate to her. If you were annoyed, you could have told us, or if you did, you could say it louder. The leaving thing, we DID tell you, you were just like 'mmmm' and went off back into snoozing.We just thought you needed more time to sleep, so we left you, or at least that's what I thought. The thing about 'The Grudge' and me bragging, I will admit, I was. I knew I was. I don't know why, but at that time I couldn't stop, I don't think I did too much, but I did. And yes, I know that is, on my account, my fault. The thing about the movie 'Grease' I said 'nothing' when you asked me something(i don't remember) because it wasn't a very significant thing to say anyways, and I was already watching the movie, so I wouldn't want to interrupt it. Ok, this is getting long, so I'll finish my *comment* later, on my blog."
All I wanted to say, shortened. Let's just start with the first I said. I know we slept at 5. but I DIDN'T know that Nicola had such a lack of sleep. I DO know that she went on the couch to sleep. Well, most of the things I knew, Kyra didn't. I'm not sure if Nicola heard our little confo., but I did try to talk Kyra out of it. Although, I think I may have *accidentally* started it. I think it started when I said...
Me: Hey! This airbed got loads more air than the other! Let's jump on it to let the air out! Just --
(Kyra jumping)(I pull her down to say)
Me:(half whisperring)I said just kidding! C'mon, stop, you'll wake Nicola or Kimberly!
Kyra(obviously not hearing): Come ON!!!
So she pulled me on the bed, and I was left with the choice with whether to entertain Kyra by jumping, and possibly wake Kimberly or Nicola(Kimberly awoke on her own later tho), or seriously tell Kyra to stop, which might hurt her feelings.It went something like that, and if the mood of the sleepover was worse, I'd feel like I was the one making it worse...
We left Nicola there on the couchbecause the "mmm" she said sounded like a 'Nicola OK'Yes, a 'Nicola OK'. Funny I just noticed in that sleepover that you said "mmm" a lot, and all of them meant yes.So, I assumed she heard we were going down, apparantly not. She later posted something like she thought we ditched you. But we didn't! Maybe the rest of the group and I had misinterpreted Nicola's words. Not everyone is perfect, and it's certainly not us.
Next....TheGrudge. I noticed how much screaming Kyra did, even for her, it was weird. Since I was never directly next to her, she wouldn't pierce my eardrums. But I THINK she did muffle the sound with a pillow, but that was all.
The other thing about it is that I bragged. I know I did. I know I shouldn't have. But all in all, I did, that's the fact. And you know what? I apologize. Seriously. I rarely even SAY I'm sorry, unless I know I had to or someone tells me to. those, I guese you can say are less meaningfull. But this one I truly am sorry. I don't think it was that much, but some I guess think it might have been a lot, and I know for this year, it's been going on for a while. But for all those times and this, I'm sorry. Slightly mushy, but it's the truth. I realize now, not that I didn't know earlier, that everyone has a different way to react to things.I know people told me that before. I know people have told me that beefore, but everyone knows how blunt and oblivious I can be...Yes, that's also one of my 'bad habit traits'.
Then ther was the other move, 'Grease'. Honestly, I think Nicola overreacted with this one. Stephanie, I know, said Nicola was nosy. Or at least being it at the time. I'm pretty sure that was Steph's friendly voice, and maybe it was Nicola's trait of not being able to handle jokes. but whatever heppened, she was nearly at tears, or at least that's what's quoted in her blogger. Not to brag, but I think I'm one of the people who know Steph best. She has used that kind of joking voice on me A LOT. but it was always a joke, and we both knew it. Nicola, only being with Stephanie for a year, may not hav known, or something like that. But I saw no reason to be crying over it. I know Nicola thinks she's the 'only one she can depend on to be nice', but in reaslity, we're only trying to be friends. I think the nosy think has bbecome more of an inside joke tho, but maybe Nicola doesn't see it. I don't know.
She also said something about me saying 'oh, nothing' in the movie after she asked me a question. Well, like she said herself, she didn't like being disturbed in a movie, and likewise, neither did i.I thought of what I said as insignificant, and even if Nicola knew, she'd probably go like, 'oh', or 'ok'. Personally, I don't like those words because it's neither meaning good or bad, so you don't know what the other is feeling in judgement.
In the final movie, although we only watched 3/4th's of it, I noticed how Nicola kept saying how rude Kyra was being, by saying the lines they sasy, either that or braging. I myself couldn't hear well, in fact, I think I don't have very good hearing at all. but anyways, it was bugging me, but I had to reply.Not wanting, again, to hurt either Nicola's feelings by saying, "Quiet! Trying to watch" or to Kyra by saying the exact same thing, I was left with not much to do but watch. So I did, and then, it hit me! Right when we stopped the movie and Nicola said she wanted to go to the bed.
*Caution: May be a slight drama queen in the following*
*WARNING(to Nicola if reading): The folowing may hurt your feelings, I'm sorry but please read it through, I'm sincerely sorry if it did hurt your feelings, but it IS my blogger, Right?*
I had come to a conclusion. Nicola does have some bad traits, just like everyone else. Fewer, but still bad. To sum it all up in a nut shell, here's what I mean. NICOLA OVERREACTS TO
EVERYTHING!!!!!!!! And, it's the truth. You can see it in her blogger, she's basically being a half-drama queen in saying how everyone has their faults.She says basically that these faults, I dunno, make her sad? well, I think that it's not wrong to be imperfect. Sure, she may be the more of all of us- more proper, more...her, but maybe she just doesn't come to realize she has different opinions of what IS prober, rather than the rest of us. and just like I said before, none of us are perfect. certainly not me, certainly not anyone who roams this earth. Nicola, basically is always....looking at the negatives? I dunno, but it's how I feel, and I wish she would at least try to have more fun, not that she isn't already, but in DDR, she didn't even TRY to do it. All she did was make it harder for everyone else to concentrate on playing the game by talking so headachingly loud with Kyra and Kimberly(or it was just Kyra)
And Nicola if you're reading this far, I'm proud that you did. Because now, if you're close to tears, I'm sorry if I hurt your feelings again, but this is all my opinion, and you can push it aside if you like, but just know this is how I feel.So, a big sorry, and a big bubble of proud for you too, for being able to take the criticism, or at least reading it.
On a lighter note, overall, before I read any of Nicola's blogger, I would think that that sleep over was a pretty good one! We all were friends to each other, or at least trying to be, but at least most of us had fun!
P.S. If you wanna know about steph's sleep over and mine, look for it at the end of the next post! :)
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